FORCE your self!
This is one of the most important and motivating TED talks I’ve seen.
I promise, it worths your time:
I’ve been in a mode of getting more stable and reliable in the last months but when I saw this 3 or 4 days ago, it was like the random thoughts in my head strengthen and got in order. I try to avoid the emergency brake in any situation. Of course it fails some times but the rest of them are very satisfying.
Change is hard and you are never gonna feel like it. The more you force yourself, the more you are going to feel like it.